coping.

couple days ago my uncle lost his battle with cancer. he had very strained relationships with pretty much everyone in my family, however with the exception of one disagreement between us, we got along. maybe it was because we bonded over a j while listening to dead kennedys, sublime, agent orange, and black flag. or maybe because i took him to his favorite bar in newport so he wouldnt get drunk and argumentative where he was at at the time. can't change a person, so change their surroundings, I figured. he was always full of his fishing stories, as he did that professionally in Hawaii, and incredible surf stories with some pretty notable surfers. he had his problems, I have my own, I don't think anyone is without some sort of demons. but he never once judged me. he never once made me feel horrible about myself. i cant speak for everyone who knew him, but as far as our bond it was unlike any other. there is good in everyone if you just look past the bullshit. anyway, I'm glad he is no longer in pain. I will miss his quirkiness, and how he had to ask every stranger if they knew the Cisco kid. RIP Uncle Eric

HOODIES!!

brrrr! i LOVE this weather! i haven't quite fully gotten over certain events that took place during this holiday season so enjoying it is another thing. regardless, i'm still glad it's here!

my anxiety has skyrocketed in the last month so i'm back on my medicine. i'm starting to take walks more, listening to Minus The Bear radio station on pandora a lot, and smoking a little bit of medical. this means i got to break out my box of pieces. i only have been using two-

Dior
my pipe from a good friend

West Coast
my steamroller. i added my touch to it, so it says
'West Coast' down the side and a penguin at the end
so it looks like you're giving it a high five every time you smoke.

so yeah. that's been nice i guess.

in friend news, i visited my best friend last week and i gained a new minion. it's never easy having to visit her, but i'm happy to say this time around was a lot easier than others. i couldn't stay long because like the idiot i am i didn't bring a coat, but at least i got to see her.

three days later, the husband and i went out to petsmart to look at puppies, sprint to get a new phone, and applebees to eat food that tastes like fucking cardboard. fast forward a bit, this boring story ends in excitement:

got this little guy! he's six months, has webbed paws, a tiny line of white hair above his nose, and one floppy ear when he runs. he's the ugliest breed i've ever had, but he's extremely goofy, and with me, personality is everything. at this point, i don't know what i'd do without resolve and caffeine. holy fuckballs. we haven't settled on a name yet, but i am leaning towards Rocko for some reason. other possible names: daffy, pogo, gizmo, n00b, rocky, fuckface, manson, danzig, ness, or cosmo. what my kitties think about it:

in other words

in interwebz news, i ordered a few things and can't wait til we get them in! when we get everything in, i'm gonna redecorate. i don't know if i should do a princess themed room, disney princesses, flowers and pretty things, or nickelodeon characters. i've been mainly working on faux finishes, venetian plaster, and staining at work so this will be something fun and different.

also in teh interwebz land, i had to sign up for a model mayhem profile AGAIN. third time. maybe i should just keep it this time. it's stupid how you can't report imposters or copyright infringement unless you have a profile on their site. this is another reason why i have fakes on bebo, fubar, and a couple dating sites. oh well. can't win em all.

have you checked out my tumblr lately? daily doses of inspiration. ya might like it. also, i go through my moments of being a twitter whore. follow me <3

for those of you that want some hardcore n00dz [and by hardcore, yes, that means penetration] i do believe i'll be up on burning angel soon =]

i just sent back the little questionnaire they give all the newbies. i think i'm gonna get my profile up pretty soon! i can't wait. once this happens i know i'll be watching porn more often.. BA mobile site is amazing on my phone. [[pornhub = too slow.]] i love porn. what's even better is my husband doesn't mind at all. i never got those insecure douches who break up with people over it.

well i have quite a few things to do today, online and off. [insert maury closing line here]

<3

RIP Amy Winehouse

i think it's absolutely horrible people saying Amy Winehouse deserved to die. NO ONE DESERVES TO DIE. it is such a shame. it's like saying you deserve to die in a car crash because you like to go over the speed limit. NO ONE IS PERFECT. yes, she was a hot mess in my opinion, but having deserved death? i can't agree with that. if someone chooses a certain lifestyle, they have to learn to live with all consequences. she was sick, and needed help, but didn't want to help herself. it's definitely a shame, and was horrible to publicly watch her go further down in her ultimate demise, but did she DESERVE to die? no.

just because that's said doesn't mean you have to feel sympathetic over it, feel however you want, but when you go out of your way to be rude and hurtful over someone's passing you should take a look on your own life. you're not perfect either, ya know.

RIP Amy Winehouse